Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Sneak Peak

I've been trying to catch up with my blog reading. . . yeah, it's going to take a while. . . Anyway, go over here to visit my favorite primal dude, Mark, and take a sneak peak his 'comprehensive diet, exercise and lifestyle book, The Primal Blueprint'. Mark's "Primal Blueprint" is the foundation for the eating and exercising habits that, *ahem*, have had such a tremendous impact on my life over the past nine months or so (temporary breakdown in primal living habits due to moving/stress/assorted pity parties are beside the point). Enjoy!

(I've been looking for an excuse to use this pic for a while. . .)

Better?

We had a nice Christmas at the cabin; hiking and picture taking and most importantly, TOGETHER for the holiday (first set of pictures here).

I'm still struggling with keeping my attitude up; it comes and goes, but I'm doing better than I was Christmas Eve. I'm determined to suck it up and make it work here, at least for a couple of years, and re-evaluate then if I want. And I'm determined to get back on track with my eating and exercise habits; I know from experience food and exercise have a huge impact on my RA and my overall well being, both of which are in dire need a swift kick in the tush.

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas, and I hope everyone is looking forward to a safe and Happy New Year.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas

OK, this is my place to come and bitch; if you want a nice, light Christmas poem, go to my other blog. If you're not able to deal with a downer today, read no further.

How did I start my Christmas Eve? I got up a little before 6 o'clock, started a pot of coffee, and then sat on the floor in the kitchen petting my dogs and bawling. Because I love the Holidays - the decorations, our family traditions - and I don't have a tree or a single strand of lights up and I'm not going to be 'home for the Holidays' this year; and because it's Christmas Eve and I had to get up early because they (might) be coming to bring my new washing machine this morning. I say might because they were supposed to have brought it Monday, and then Tuesday, so I'm not holding my breath for today. I haven't been able to do a single load of wash since I've moved here; it sure would be nice to have some clean clothes. And I was bawling because I woke up barely able to use my hands, and every joint hurts, and I'm tired.

Tired from coming to St. Louis and driving all around the area looking for a place to live (and, as it turns out, choosing the WRONG place). Tired from unexpectedly having only four days left to finish getting ready to move. Tired from driving here from Houston with my parents and dogs in tow, and then having to drive for the first time in ice and snow the very first day here. Tired from spending a week unpacking and unpacking and unpacking, so I could get all the stupid boxes OUT of here. Mentally and emotionally tired because there have been so many problems with my apartment, and with the move in general, and I feel like I made a huge mistake in deciding to take this job and move to St. Louis. Tired from doing it all with increasing joint pain every day. Mentally and emotionally tired from trying to force my mood up every day, and not give in to the lurking negativity. Tired because underneath it all, fatigue is so much part of having RA that it's hard to remember what it feels like to not be tired all the time.

And I haven't even started the new job yet.

Yes, I'm having a nice little pity party. I feel awful about it, since my parents have gone to the trouble of finding a cabin just an hour away from St. Louis, and are driving all the way back here, after driving home to Houston just last week, so I don't have to drive back to Houston for Christmas. They're in a hotel this morning, hoping the falling temps and earlier rain here in Missouri don't create dangerous driving for the last leg of their trip to the cabin. They've got troubles of their own, but they've made a huge effort to make this Christmas nice.

I'm sure I'll work myself into a better attitude before long, but I decided I needed to take a time out and just let it all hang out there.

And "That's all I have to say about that", since my hands won't type another word, and I need to pack for the cabin. . .



Thursday, December 11, 2008

Uncle!

Chaos and madness prevails!! I went to St. Louis last week - found a two bedroom apartment in a nice, safe neighborhood. Relatively close to work and with plenty of sidewalks for dog walking. It was literally the last property I looked at - the 14th. I came back to Houston pooped, but. . . the moving company is coming on Friday (three days earlier than I had planned - it's a long story) to pack and load my stuff. Aaaaargh!!! So much to do, so little time! I know it would be overwhelming regardless, but we all know that RA adds an extra element of 'hard'. . .

One more day left to get everything ready. . .


Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to all! I hope everyone can spend the holiday doing whatever makes you most happy, and most thankful.

I will get back to blogging soon (I hope); I'm getting ready for my 'big move' to St. Louis, Missouri.

In the mean time, I've been reading a very interesting book, The Autoimmune Epidemic by Donna Jackson Nakazawa which I highly recommend to everyone with an autoimmune disease (and really everyone else).


Tuesday, November 4, 2008

I Got An Offer

. . . in St. Louis (Hazelwood) Missouri. Decision time. Anybody out there reading this from the St. Louis area?

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Oooops - Ouch!

So yesterday I went to the nature preserve with my dogs for a hike. It was nice and cool and the humidity was low, so after we finished the two mile loop, we were all up for a bit more. Other times that I have felt like doing more than a single loop, we have continued on around and done another partial loop, and a couple of times I've investigated some of the side trails - mostly moutain bike trails. Yesterday, I decided to investigate some mountain bike trails that we hadn't tried before.

D'oh! The trail we took was on the interior of the two mile loop, so you would think there was a limit to the amount of ground that could be covered. . . and you would be wrong! I have no idea how far we ended up walking before we finally popped out of the woods onto a trail I recognized, but I know that it takes us about 45 minutes, give or take, to walk the two mile loop, and our little side trip took about an hour and 15 minutes.

The whole time, I knew I wasn't lost per se, since I knew I was on the interior of the two mile loop, but after a while, I wondered how far we had to go before we got 'out'. And I felt pretty stupid. I kept thinking, 'What have I gotten us into!?!' Needless to say, after a while, it was NOT a pleasant hike anymore! Besides knees and hips that started telling me I was overdoing it, both the ball and heel of one foot really started hurting. BAD! And my dogs were visibly CRAWLING with TICKS!!! Gross!

So, our two mile walk, plus just a 'little' bit more, became a 2 1/2 hour 'adventure'. This moring, my foot is still sore and swollen, although much, much better than it was yesterday (it really stiffened up on the drive home, and I couldn't put any weight on it for most of the rest of the day. I hope I haven't triggered and already RA affected joint into a new phase!) And I pulled litterally more than two dozen ticks off my dogs (and three from myself). None of them, thank goodness, attached. And then I doused them with both a homemade herbal flea/tick repellent and Adams flea and tick spray (I was desperate; I hate to use chemicals like that on my dogs!).

Talk about biting off more than you can chew!